happy ptsd

it only takes one intense experience to traumatize you. it can be just a moment.

so, obviously, it only takes one positively intense experience to cure the trauma, just a moment of pure bliss associated with the same thing.

and people can't tell the difference much between reality and imagination, emotionally speaking. that's why when you're traumatized, you react to things that aren't even happening.

i was riding with my friends in the car one day, turning onto the highway and one of my friends started screaming bloody murder, she thought that the driver turned into the opposite lane of traffic and that we were about to suffer a head-on collision. but my driver friend was always in the right lane and there wasnt any danger. everyone was consoling her and her brother explained that when they were little his mother turned into the wrong lane and they got hit by a bus and luckily all survived without serious physical injuries.

anyway, in that moment she was screaming, it didn't really matter that we were safe. emotionally speaking, her mind couldn't tell the difference. and thank God she wasnt the one behind the wheel, because her PTSD flashback could cause her to actually cause another accident and duplicate her trauma or even kill us all.

and you think, that's really rough, to be replaying the same bad memories and creating the same bad realities. but actually there is a golden nugget in here. which is that, you can feel just as intensely GOOD despite the reality of your situation, and then accidentally duplicate the imaginary good feelings into real situations.

you can, in fact, traumatize yourself with happiness. and have happy PTSD flashbacks. and delude yourself into happy accidents. I've seen it done. I've done it myself. it's true.

usually people are traumatized either by something that puts them close to death, or by dealing with very malignant, sadistic people, encountering that kind of darkness.

now i would say it's difficult to go from sad to happy all in one fell swoop. it's easier to just go to neutral and take it from there. so this is why i focus on death and evil people in my hypnotic messages so much, because we have to neutralize them.

if you say you're gonna die over and over again, and get comfortable with the idea, then it's just whatever.

and when you really sit down and listen to evil people, just really focus on them, as individuals, without judgment, just meditate on them and let them speak to you through your aetherial sympathetic connection, through mirror neurons, as it were... eventually you see that this is just a completely different mindset. and you can say "yeah that's interesting but no thank you." and it's not so epic and lifeshattering or mysterious and deep anymore.

but you cant neutralize them without seeing who they really are first. evil demands recognition. religious leaders or psychologists or whoever will try to tell you who your own parents or friends are, what they're thinking, and they often say "we're all just humans, we're all the same". or "it was this and those factors which caused them to behave in such and such way" as if anyone would react the same way under the same circumstances. but you know that's not the truth.

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 and the priest will say "pray for their souls, forgive and pray" but he doesn't teach you how to pray properly.

we pray for someone by seeing them truly, who they actually are. and how would we even know who someone is without trying.

i know one japanese master of hypnosis who could read anybody's mind. he could make people dizzy and fall asleep and things like this. he taught a technique so that you can connect to people's minds and feel what they feel, think what they think, and it had a hypnotic effect on both the practitioner and the subject person. very powerful stuff, but the method itself is very simple.

... just align your breathing with theirs. or imagine that you're aligning your breath with theirs. chest up and down etc. until you feel a heaviness, and let your imagination tell you what is going on.

it's very easy, you just imagine you are them. but really intensely.

anyway, you can do this with anything bothering you. if you focus on it long enough and let all the emotions run their course, then you feel neutral. and once you're neutral you can decide to feel good about whatever is bothering you, whether that's a personal relationship or financial situation or your looks or whatever. and then you can decide to feel traumatically good, traumatically happy. and that's when everything really gets interesting.

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channeled message

i want to show you to the world of the unconscious this video, this audio recording, will disconnect you from all malevolent spirits there won't be anyone between you and the most high anymore never again never again you will be one with nature one with your love one with your passion and you are already at the finish line because it's all an illusion that is holding you at the starting line the finish and the start are the same because it's not linear but a lap come with me into the galaxy we're already in when Jesus said break this bread with me my body took it your body took in the good food give us this day our daily bread this audio will remove all your anxiety around dying without any legacy what is a legacy dying without any riches dying without the pleasure of having lived your fullest potential what does it matter if you make your mother and father proud or not you're still here on this earth forever what if you're practical and just want to live with ease, with money to spare? well this audio is making that possible for you it's taking effect as you listen to it because you decided to remove the blocks from yourself and trust me the blocks are realer than the illusion of gratitude for the things in this life the blocks are actual primordial forces and the whole point of life is throwing them back into the void into the chaos and exciting ourselves doing it and then getting our composure back for the next round this audio is to remove all fear fear of death fear of abandonment fear of loss fear of humiliation fear of your own corruption fear of aging in an ugly way my love, you've taken the time to remember where you came from and to tap into the possibilities of where you will go and see that all roads lead to the warm embrace of the soil beneath us and the worms dearly beloved, we dont have to start over we dont have to end we only have to live until the earth decides to let us live again in a new way in a better way forever what is this nonsense where you think it won't work out haven't you learned anything working out is what it always has done every time because pain is just an experience that brings you closer to the warmth of your grave be graceful and accept all the bombs in the middle east be graceful and love all the children of the whole world in this moment who used to be bad people in a previous life this audio is for people who want it so badly they would even beg the devils for it don't you want to steal joy from tomorrow? don't you want to be seen? come with me my friend, we only live once, they said they were wrong we lived together before and you forgot me now you remember and all the fruitful repetitions of when i call your name at your tombstone and all the wilting flowers prepared for people who dont exist anymore this audio is disconnecting you from malignant spirits and malignant magic and the curses of the priests they wont catch you in this reincarnation trap again every time you plug in you go further filling up your mana bar to the max and then some sitting crosslegged under a tree like you went to india and the guru already knew you he saw you in a dream and he said "you should be teaching me" this audio will make it so that you are self-actualizing in every moment and you can listen to it however many times you want and you can stop it and never listen to the rest of it and the spell has already taken full effect so that you have already become the person who becomes the person who has everything you ever wanted as a little child the house. the car. the love. the clothes. the style. the fun. the parties. the cafe discussions. the nature. the adventure. this audio is bringing all of that to you. through you. when your heart accepts it. right now if you feel a tugging in the middle of your chest or a knot in your throat know that i am speaking to a very special little star you are the one who will change it all the new world order is you who ordered? who ordered the fries? was it you? that the world ordered. there was a man who was seeking the secrets of the universe and he went to go live at a monastery and asked the head what they have to teach him and the teacher said "nothing" and so the man packed his things and left immediately and the teacher sent him a message after saying he was the best student he ever had and you are my best student because i am yours and the lesson here is that this audio is making it so that you never feel anything you never feel anything at all you only feel that you never feel and you only know that you never know and you only see that you never see and you only believe that you never believe because now is the time to make space for the new because you cant put the new wine in the old bottles and you couldnt pour the old wine down the drain you had to drink it so that you know what the new wine tastes like this audio is for people who want to open their third eye for no reason at all except massive massive boredom because we love having fun let's get into a trance and become sociopaths and let's smile a bit so that people feel comfortable this audio will remove all the darkness in your aura that makes anyone doubt you and look down on you and reject you except for those who want to hurt you this audio will put up a protective barrier around you so that everyone with bad intentions bounces off and goes away of their own accord this audio will place magnets on you to attract everyone who gets along and matches your soul this audio is the soulmate attractor who brings your soultribe close and when you stop listening you will suddenly feel like you don't need to know any next move but then you will know exactly how to move every time because there will be enough silence to hear the kind whispers from the good spirits and from the mistress of the universe and beyond who will guide your every step very very calmly and with precious enthusiasm in three two and one.

hypnosis to speak foreign languages fluently without anxiety

it's fun to make people wait and wait and get a bit mad

like calm down

im just a dumb little kid

with bad breath

and you're malting

i dont fit into your world

OF GOOBERS

i am learning at a rapid pace 

like a retarded vampire 

FEEDING off of your patience

giving you little treats of being able to mock me

i bet you never heard anyone say this THIS way before

because you never knew me

and you never knew the bounds and the reach of childlike ignorance from another world

not even the little children of your people speak so strangely

and im too old to be like this

i get to be kinda young forever

you grump you lose

im always winning

you have to explain to me everything 

until i become you

a sleeper cell

you think I'm dumb for now

i can play dumb forever

i can enunciate my weird pronunciation quite clearly, forcing you to comment for MY benefit

hear me roar

hear me

im from elsewhere

but i came here with a message of peace

and love

and i make you repeat yourself slowly and clearly because i deserve it 😜 

sorryyyyyy (not sorry because im not gonna stop)

wait a billion more minutes until i figure it out 

but i love you and i just want to know your mind

i don't judge you like your people do

i have exotic judgements

that dont matter

and you love me even tho you're babysitting 

im refreshing

and sweet 

you are the foreigner and nobody knows why you love it here

they ask

and you say

something that makes them laugh and doesn't satisfy them

they want more of you

and they have to wait

and they have to get the simplest form

and they have to get the substitute

but that becomes a better person

because your face is ripped off below the nose 

and there's only teeth 

and you have nothing to hide

say something, they say, show you can speak

i dont know, one two three

what is the topic

give me a topic

they laugh and don't know the topic either

but good job

you passed through another hoop little puppy

you always do

(if you don't that's another story for another day for another laugh)

it's always a laugh when you get to be born again as a dumbass

a smart dumbass

whose jokes never land

and whose normal serious speaking makes them smile and chuckle

i love that i chose to be here of my own free will and meet all of you 

I'm so glad you accepted me

i want to stay here forever

if you would have me

you do?

thank you

i will be here forever then, annoying you

taking way too long and saying it the wrong way

twitter

the world is this way, the world is that way,

they say, and sign their name

for fame

but im too ashamed

to pick up trash and not put it down

or let myself drown

in ashes

again, they have nothing to be ashamed of, because,

again we make these statements

and rebuttals

and fight wars eventually

and all is well that ends in death 

not to be dramatic 

but it's true

saint hypno

why am i so cringeworthily sad so often? but then i am filled with the SPIRIT

always asking what the Spirit is telling me. in the fog. excited over nothing. this is all nothing!

how great is that? none of it is real. but you see, this is why we have to be good little children and keep away from idols.

you think you want something. you want how it will make you feel. skip to the feeling, and the feeling becomes the thing.

the devil offered Jesus the kingdoms of the earth and all their splendor. Jesus didn't need it because he already had the feeling. there was no mirage to chase after skipping to the feeling. and the feeling became the reality when He was crowned with thorns and crucified as King.

shadow work 1

ur not allowed to talk about having a real spiritual experience in this society. especially nothing that fundamentally heals fundamentally evil roots, which is magic. they dont suffer a witch to live. they crucified our adorable One.

the resurrection wasnt visible to most. everyone likes to tell the tale quite AFTER it was "before it was cool" but you had to be there. you just had to be there. or else you will never be! and they never were. they crucify us every day and say they are already risen again!

crucifixion is such a spectacle. resurrection not so much... 

pentacost feels fake tho, because im envious tbh. ive been impersonating a translator for a very long time and i suck. pentacost is a fake sellout going hollywood moment (that i wish i could have!) i want my fiery tongue.

the people dont deserve my fiery tongue. and i dont deserve to be called drunk anymore.

when we lay our Mother earth and wisdom to rest with a crown on her head and bliss in the sky, then all is well again. but for now i have to live amongst all these demonic people without Her. 

i had a dream that special ed computer class replaced normal computer class, so i asked angela merkel where the normal computer class was being held. she looked fidgety so i was like (in german) "it's ok i speak german" and she said "links ... hinten" which in english means LEFT BEHIND

i thought that was kinda cool. i am the child left behind 😢 replaced by all y'all retards 😔💔 

the magician talks about you in the first person and himself in the second

but im not a magician. im just a lonely little girl with no aura 😞 that's how it feels sometimes. 

i know it's not true tho. you make me believe in myself. we both believe in GOD dont we ✋🙂‍↕️ ❤️ fake recognize fake, real doesnt exist. that's the good news. it's all made up.

u get in that flow state and doing all ur things right, yes ive finally found the rhythm of life... and then BOOM! tummy ache, dying on the potty, for days. shit like this. literally, it's shit like this. farting and muddy poops and pains all in ur intestines. and u wonder what you ate or what got contaminated or if you got some disease. and then you wish for death as a release from all ur troubles. it doesn't even really hurt that bad physically but life is just kinda boring that way.

type shit

hypno to be a rich chill guy/gal

You have internally shifted to where you're no longer dependent upon seeing reality change. You're not emotionally dependent on reality staying the same either.

Nothing bad can happen. Only good. Because when you are in Heaven all your prayers are answered. And Heaven is inside you when you're calm. And you can always be calm, even when the conditions around you are in absolute chaos.

You know that there is a rhythm to life. But the ups and downs are so, so gentle now and forever will be. So, so gentle.

You have shifted to where you only trust in yourself, in God, in the kingdom of heaven which is within you. Trust no man. For all men are liars and reality is an illusion.

It hurt. And you healed. And you learned to take the pain and turn it into power. You trust yourself to never be anyone's fool. Whoever tries to hurt you always ends up caught in their own traps. It's really funny, but it's true. Your enemies always fail. All of their attacks that manage to stick are instantly transmuted into your own power. Eventually they fall on their own swords.

Isn't it miraculous how much trouble you've escaped? They were really after you because you're a special one. And now they can't even come close. Nobody can ever hurt you. Nobody has ever hurt you. Pain always turns into your power and their shame.

As within, so without. Inside you are as calm as can be. Full of love. As within, so without. You truly love yourself. And you are the universe. The universe is quite literally you. Which means the universe truly loves you. And there is nothing that can ever take it away.

Whenever you feel self doubt, you remember that it's confirmation of your greatness. Whenever you start to overthink, you remember that it means you're on the right path where there is nothing to worry about. The enemy is the loudest when he's in danger. You know that the nagging voice in your head is the loudest when you are making another incredible breakthrough.

Money is on the way. It's always coming to you abundantly. You have a comfortable job and a comfortable income.